I am NOT pregnant!

We had a great day today - well, after I had my little temper tantrum this morning. However, after that, we dropped the Jaeleigh and Keaton off with Peyton for the day and me, Mama and Luci headed to Mobile to do some antique shopping. We had a great day! We even had fun at lunch. We went to this cool cafe where they threw the rolls at us. It was so much fun! Once we got back into town, we stopped by Target and I got to do my couponing which always makes me feel better...ha. OH, and the most important news of the day --> It looks as though I got the job at Miller-Motte Technical College teaching all their Billing classes. I am shocked and beyond excited. My new boss, Karen, called me today and told me that I would start in October and I have four classes. That's like $5000 every 9 weeks! So, on Monday I get to call the doctor and schedule my tummy tuck! Yay! I am SO EXCITED especially since today another person asked me when the baby was due....

Luci is TWO!

My baby is TWO! I can't believe how quickly these past two years have flown by. Here she is right now, just sitting next to me with her pink and orange polka dot blanket and her nunu and she's adorable. I am so lucky to have three beautiful children. But, it's hard to think that my baby isn't much of a baby now. Kinda sad....

Yesterday I got the kids dressed and we went out to run some errands. I had to go pick up a script at Dr. Volters offices so I stopped by to see Brenda. Her room was full of her family which surprised me because they usually aren't all there at the same time and have never been there when I was there. Well, then I looked at Brenda and knew something was wrong. She didn't say anything to me but she did look at me. I walked over to her son and asked what was wrong. Turns out she had a massive stroke on Monday. i am devastated. I was just there last week when I brought her some cake and she was running around the room and happy and talking. Now she is laying in the bed and can't speak. I am already not good with the death process and I know she is one step closer. She helped me so much after Wayne left by hiring me and helping me through the divorce. I worked for her for years and we stayed friends after I left to have Luci. I know that death is something that I will have to deal with more as I get older, but this is the first time since my great-grand parents that I have had to deal with sickness with someone so close. It's hard.

July 26, 2011

Had a really great weekend. Savannah has been staying with me so I do not have to be alone. I do not like being here all alone all the time. So, it was fun because I got to cook and bake for her and she helped me get my stuff up on eBay. Tonight, Mama took her home, so I am here by myself. It's been ok so far because I needed to clean and get some stuff done that I just wouldn't do with anyone else here...I'd be too lazy. I had to get all the trash out for tomorrow, which I hate because that is totally Tony's job. UGH! Oh, well...now me and Luci are watching HGTV and I'm drinking hot cocoa. I'm missing Tony so much but we talk every nice on Face Time which is great...but I miss him.

July 20, 2011

June brought on my ten-year class reunion. I have been preparing for it for what feels like years. So, I had a great time. However, I was so nervous I hadn't been able to eat for like a week, so I had two drinks and was toasted. So toasted that Tony brought me home at 11pm. I woke up at like 3a.m. horrified and so upset, feeling like I ruined the night. But, i got over it and decided I was never going to drink hard liquor again...so far, I haven't! Go me! The reunion was really great though. That Friday evening we had a meet-and-greet at the high school and got to walk around to see all the changes. Saturday afternoon we had a picnic with all the kids. That was really fun too. It was so wonderful to see old friends. I hope to be able to keep up with a few and create new friendships in the memory of the old ones.

After that, we went on a trip to Panama City with Savannah and Justin (who have now broken up). But, the trip was still great. Since then, we have been just spending a lot of time together because Tony has been off work for a month (he is transferring).

So, I haven't been writing a lot lately because I have been living this crazy thing called life, however, Tony left three days ago for a class in California and I need an outlet. Savannah was with me up until today so that really helped, but now that I am alone, I feel like I may panic. I mean, I'm not panicking yet, but I feel like I am on the brink of it. I know everything is ok but I also know that in February he will be leaving for six months. So, I think this feeling is mixed with what's happening now and what will happen. Savannah has also been going through a lot and I've tried to be there for her. I went to papa's yesterday with her and then went to McComb and saw Mary and Alison. It was so nice to see them because it's been awhile. It's kinda nice being able to relax and not have to rush home because I always feel obligated to be home with Tony, however, being out helps keeps me busy so I don't think about Tony. But, now, I'm alone. It's the middle of the night and I hate being alone.