Upset

I walked into work yesterday and there was a going-away party. I did not know about this event. I had received an initial email regarding ideas but I never got anything else regarding what they had decided to do. What really got to me is that everyone knew I had a jewelry party set up for 1pm. I had everything set up and no one ever came. I was so upset and embarrassed.

Too busy...

I cannot even get a spare moment to blog - but I am making myself blog tonight. Work is insane, but being Program Director is fun. I enjoy the work even though it is a lot of work. Tony has been home for a little over a month now, and I think we are doing pretty well. It was rough in the beginning. It was like he was a stranger. We even went through a really difficult week or so, but now, we seem to be doing well. I guess we had to just find each other again. <3 Today was Election Day. :-) Guess we will find out if we will have a new president or the same, bad politics for another 4 years... Keaton turned 7 years old on Sunday... We took him and his little friend to the Southern Promiseland Farm for the day. It was a lot of fun. I can't believe my baby boy is so grown, although today he is pretty pitiful because he is sick. :-( I had to keep Jaeleigh and Keaton home from school. I took them to the doctor and got them on antibiotics so hopefully they will both feel better soon. Tony's mom will be here Saturday! We are so excited!!!

Family Fun Day Success!!

So it's 11:47 p.m. and I just sat down since I got up this morning at 9 a.m. AND - that was after going to sleep at 6 a.m. I was up all night baking and cleaning and stressing about the Family Fun Day at Jones Park today but it turned out great! I am so relieved! I really had a fabulous time. Of course I am pretty sure that I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Although at this moment, I'm running on the fumes of my superwoman flames hahahaha I don't know if that made any sense. I think I'm going to go eat some cake and then crash. Night!

Life has sucked me in...

Sometimes the weeks go by and I do not even notice. I noticed today because I had to write a check and I wrote out the word "August" and almost had a panic attack. How the hell did that happen? When did January turn into August? One minute I was complaining about turning 29, then I was baking cupcakes for Jaeleigh to take to cheer camp to celebrate her 9th birthday and then suddenly I am organizing Luci's third birthday party. My life seems to be going by so fast sometimes that I cannot catch my breath. Drama at work today. No, I can't write about it because I would totally get fired but there is no other way to describe it as drama. Tony did not make Chief. I found out Tuesday. I know I am probably more upset about it than he is but I really wanted it. There is always next year.... I just want him to come home and take care of me. I'm so tired of taking care of myself - and everyone else. I'm so tired.

June 14, 2012

So I have buried myself in work, as if you couldn't tell. I haven't written in almost three months. I basically have not wanted to deal with my feelings or anything else for that matter. I go to work to escape the pain of Tony being gone and it has worked so far. He texts me though and then I remember and feel it all over again. Then I feel bad for thinking about other things instead of him. It's almost like I have taken the love I have for him and locked it into a box so it wouldn't be so painful to have him gone. Now, I just don't know what to do with that.

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My last day as 28...

So, how do I feel? Sad I guess. It's the last birthday in my 20s and I just never expected to be at the point in my life. I mean, I always hoped I would reach this age alive and well, but I never really planned to be this old. I've discovered that there isn't much good about getting older....maybe the money but with that just comes more responsibilities and bills...so that just kinda cancels each other out.

Jaeleigh's First Cheer Performance

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March 2, 2012

I have been working so much. Tony has been gone for a month now. It's been so hard. Mandie took me out last weekend and we had so much fun - but when I came home, it was back to work. Yesterday when I got to work, there were roses from Tony. I think there are some lilies mixed in because they have made the entire home smell divine. So, I have some new friends at work - Joanna, Meagan and Joyce. I love them! Last Saturday I went to Meagan's bridal party and next weekend we are going to New Orleans for her bachelorette party. I am so excited! Her wedding is March 17th. :-) And, my birthday is March 24th - the big 2-9! Woo hoo - time for botox!

Reunion

Yesterday, someone said, "what a reunion that will be." Now that's all I can think about - and how far away that is. So far away...

This is hard.

I made it through week two at work. Working full time is hard. I love it though. Tomorrow is Friday and I'm off. I'm spending it with Tony. He leaves at 5am on Monday. Nothing else is harder than that. Nothing.

January 9, 2012

Weird weekend - but it was pretty good. Friday night we hit up The Shed. I love that place! It is so yummy!!!!! Saturday we got up and hit the mall and then got home in time to watch the Saints kick some butt. Awesomest. game. ever.

Today was the weird day. I got up at like 2pm, took a shower, ate, then went back to sleep. I slept until like 7pm. I have no idea what that was all about. I think I'm getting sick and maybe my body is trying to fight it. I feel better now. Mama and I went riding around at midnight tonight looking at some houses and then hit up WhatABurger - yumMY! Now, I'm watching Hoarders....and then I'm going to go to bed. I actually have to get up tomorrow and clean my house.

We are leaving for Gatlinburg on Friday!!!


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I need to hit the gym...

Tony and I have an appointment tomorrow at Navy Fed to talk about the new mortgage and we are going to decide if we want to continue to pursue the new house or take another year to pay down debts and wait until the market get better.

I am definitely ready to start hitting the gym. I'm eating way too much and I feel nasty and fat. Ugh. I gained 6 pounds over the holidays and I'm so over that. I think tomorrow may be the day that the gym may see my face again! We will see.... :-)

Dear Brenda...

Dear Brenda,
Thinking of you a lot today. I was wondering what crazy New Year's resolutions you would have come up with. You probably would have had me out, walking around the hospital with you by now. It's freezing by the way. You would love it. :-) Well, you would love it for a minute, and then start complaining about it! LOLOL

This morning I burst into tears when I filled up the coffee cup you gave me. You would have told me to stop being so dramatic and get over it, but I'm still working on it! I hope you are having a good day in heaven. :-)