Life has sucked me in...

Sometimes the weeks go by and I do not even notice. I noticed today because I had to write a check and I wrote out the word "August" and almost had a panic attack. How the hell did that happen? When did January turn into August? One minute I was complaining about turning 29, then I was baking cupcakes for Jaeleigh to take to cheer camp to celebrate her 9th birthday and then suddenly I am organizing Luci's third birthday party. My life seems to be going by so fast sometimes that I cannot catch my breath. Drama at work today. No, I can't write about it because I would totally get fired but there is no other way to describe it as drama. Tony did not make Chief. I found out Tuesday. I know I am probably more upset about it than he is but I really wanted it. There is always next year.... I just want him to come home and take care of me. I'm so tired of taking care of myself - and everyone else. I'm so tired.