June 14, 2012

So I have buried myself in work, as if you couldn't tell. I haven't written in almost three months. I basically have not wanted to deal with my feelings or anything else for that matter. I go to work to escape the pain of Tony being gone and it has worked so far. He texts me though and then I remember and feel it all over again. Then I feel bad for thinking about other things instead of him. It's almost like I have taken the love I have for him and locked it into a box so it wouldn't be so painful to have him gone. Now, I just don't know what to do with that.